Goodbye Graham – Julianstown

Today in Meath I went to the funeral mass of one of my photography friends. 

Graham took his own life last week. 

He had suffered with depression for years and I can only assume that it all finally got too much for him. I’m sad today and like a lot of his friends have questions in my mind. I wonder did I miss a recent call for help, could I have been a better friend. Did he know that there was so many people that worried about him and would have liked to have helped ease his troubled mind.

We saw each other seldom but stayed in touch using Facebook messenger and often chatted about photography, running a business and just general stuff. I went back through my messages today looking over old conversations I spotted something from a few years back. He sent me a message thanking me for chatting to him over the weekend he said he’d been in a bad place and that chatting to his FB friends had helped.

He is gone now and I’m not sure that there is anything that I or anyone else could have done but at that back of my mind I have this feeling that I wish I’d said “Hi” last week.

RIP Graham you are missed.

Each man’s death diminishes me,

For I am involved in mankind.

Therefore, send not to know

For whom the bell tolls,

It tolls for thee.

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